[Voice//Hastily Locked to Zack, 75% Unhackable]]

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Zack come look at this.


[[ooc: Already been done hooked up, but Cloud's referring to this for those interested.

Edit: After Ed and Sig's comments, Cloud locked the entry.]]

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[wingenvy]

[.....................

THERE ARE NO WORDS.]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[Cloud hangs his head, hunching his shoulders. He grips the back of the couch, fingers curling against it. Dimly he realizes that he's half-straddling Zack.]

...sorry.

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[wingenvy]

[Isn't moving. He can't decide if the contact is helping or making it worse.]

...it's okay.

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

This is all my stupid fault. [Cloud clutches the sofa tighter, almost in an effort to just keep from touching Zack.] I should've paid attention. I knew something was up.

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[wingenvy]

[Okay let's try to lighten the mood a bit.] Yeah, it is, but there's no helping it now.

[...Urge to move... rising...]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[You have no idea the emotrain that has left the station, do you Zack?]

...or I should've gone. Or...something. Holy, I'm stupid.

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[wingenvy]

[He's cluing into that now.]

Spike, shut up. We're miserable enough already.

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[Shuts up.]

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[wingenvy]

[Twitch.]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

...Zack.

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[wingenvy]

...What?

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[Did he even want to say it?

...no.]

...nothing.

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[wingenvy]

....Cloud.

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I wish this was real.

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[wingenvy]

[WHAT.]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Shut up, not because it's you and I have a secret crush. Because I know you're thinking that.

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[wingenvy]

What else was I supposed to think!?

[OH THANK GOD NOW THERE WON'T BE ANY HEART ATTACKS.]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I don't know how to explain it without sounding pathetic.

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[wingenvy]

You damn well better think of something, Spike. You're breakin' my brain here.

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I've never felt this way before. Ever.

[Cloud hangs his head again.] And it's fake. Just another fake feeling, another fake memory.

...nothing's changed. I'll never get away from it.

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[wingenvy]

[....That's... depressing. Really depressing. Because it's Cloud, and he's done so much and deserves love, to feel what it's like and to have it for the rest of his life. A guy like him shouldn't be alone.

And Zack can't even properly sympathize because he's felt it. And even the most painful times in his life can't make him regret it.]

... Spike...

[He has no idea what to say. At all.]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[Silence. Then a weak snort.]

I guess that's one way to throw a bucket of cold water on the situation.

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[wingenvy]

[Zack just sighs, leaning in and resting his forehead against Cloud's, the contact innocent, especially compared to what they'd been doing before.]

I'm sorry.

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[Cloud opens his mouth to say something along the lines of "it's fine," but his voice is caught by the lump in his throat and he closes his mouth with a click of his teeth. And purses his lips.

Still pathetic after all.]

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[wingenvy]

[Goddammit, Spike, it's impossible to not love you, platonically or otherwise. You get a big Zacky hug for your woes.]