[Voice//Hastily Locked to Zack, 75% Unhackable]]

[herobydefault]

Zack come look at this.


[[ooc: Already been done hooked up, but Cloud's referring to this for those interested.

Edit: After Ed and Sig's comments, Cloud locked the entry.]]

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[wingenvy]

What would you rather do!? You can't expect me to go "hurry up and fuck me" or something either because you're my best friend and best friends don't screw around like this!

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[...well shit now he was thinking about it. Images. No. Wrong ew. But. Not ew at all nnnngh.]

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[wingenvy]

[.....................

THERE ARE NO WORDS.]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[Cloud hangs his head, hunching his shoulders. He grips the back of the couch, fingers curling against it. Dimly he realizes that he's half-straddling Zack.]

...sorry.

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[wingenvy]

[Isn't moving. He can't decide if the contact is helping or making it worse.]

...it's okay.

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

This is all my stupid fault. [Cloud clutches the sofa tighter, almost in an effort to just keep from touching Zack.] I should've paid attention. I knew something was up.

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[wingenvy]

[Okay let's try to lighten the mood a bit.] Yeah, it is, but there's no helping it now.

[...Urge to move... rising...]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[You have no idea the emotrain that has left the station, do you Zack?]

...or I should've gone. Or...something. Holy, I'm stupid.

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[wingenvy]

[He's cluing into that now.]

Spike, shut up. We're miserable enough already.

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[Shuts up.]

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[wingenvy]

[Twitch.]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

...Zack.

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[wingenvy]

...What?

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[Did he even want to say it?

...no.]

...nothing.

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[wingenvy]

....Cloud.

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I wish this was real.

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[wingenvy]

[WHAT.]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Shut up, not because it's you and I have a secret crush. Because I know you're thinking that.

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[wingenvy]

What else was I supposed to think!?

[OH THANK GOD NOW THERE WON'T BE ANY HEART ATTACKS.]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I don't know how to explain it without sounding pathetic.

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[wingenvy]

You damn well better think of something, Spike. You're breakin' my brain here.

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I've never felt this way before. Ever.

[Cloud hangs his head again.] And it's fake. Just another fake feeling, another fake memory.

...nothing's changed. I'll never get away from it.

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[wingenvy]

[....That's... depressing. Really depressing. Because it's Cloud, and he's done so much and deserves love, to feel what it's like and to have it for the rest of his life. A guy like him shouldn't be alone.

And Zack can't even properly sympathize because he's felt it. And even the most painful times in his life can't make him regret it.]

... Spike...

[He has no idea what to say. At all.]

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[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

[Silence. Then a weak snort.]

I guess that's one way to throw a bucket of cold water on the situation.

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[wingenvy]

[Zack just sighs, leaning in and resting his forehead against Cloud's, the contact innocent, especially compared to what they'd been doing before.]

I'm sorry.