herobydefault | [Voice]

Okay. Giving this a shot.

(If there's any new arrivals -kids- that need a place to stay- like, with people, adults, to cook and take care of them- laundry and school, homework, helping with things and not creepy, who misses their parents?

this is hard, is it working?

I'm. Cloud.)

If that didn't get picked up, or was... You know, it's hard keeping your thoughts straight. If there are any new arrivals that don't feel comfortable living on their own -younger kids, anybody used to living with their parents- we have room in the seventh community building. I'm Cloud, or you can talk to Raine Loire about it, too. I hope that's okay, Raine.

(next, next, what's next, I should have wrote this down damn it)

[Locked from Asch and Zack//extremely hackable since his thoughts are all over and probably show how to decipher his lock]

Also, if there's anyone (not Asch) who can use a-...not a short sword, but a normal-sized one I guess (who isn't an asshole) that doesn't mind sparring with me, I'd appreciate it if we...y'know, could.

[/Locked]

Walter, I'd like a second of your time if you have it. (test test, test test

I want to add an addition on to the Seventh Heaven bar, I need your help, I don't know how to build things Stella help me out

i'll owe you.

tifa would be happy with it, tifa needs a pick-me-up, tifa misses the kids i'm thinking too much about it)

Enough of that.

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Because you want to tell me.

I... I lost everything.

Where are you?

Home.

I'm coming over.

I can't say you won't run into him here.

Fine.

He won't.

[Cloud doesn't bother answering -doesn't trust himself not to project "hate anger fear" all over the place and he'd rather at least keep it between him and Kadaj instead of letting the Malnosso get their paws all over it.

He just makes his way over there.]

[Kadaj waits inside the doorway, figuring it would be best that he be there when Cloud arrives lest Yazoo get there before he does. It would be a shame if he had to ~~attempt to~~ kill Cloud for harming his brother.]

[Probably a good idea, since Cloud never wants to see him again anyway.

Knock knock.]

[Quick answering action!]

Hello, Cloud.

[It's very strange, but Cloud can tell immediately; he's not sure how to describe it. A lack of something -not that that's entire bad, considering what the something is- but also a distance. A gap.

A loss of a connection. He stares at Kadaj, eyes narrowed as he tries to pinpoint exactly how he's supposed to feel about this.]

[He looks away, almost as if ashamed by his loss. It was something so important that he'd needed it in a way he couldn't even describe.]

[There's a little bit of pity -Kadaj obviously misses it- but coiling deep in his gut is a burning jealousy. If only it were so easy.

Lucky bastard.]

...she's gone.

Like she was never even there. [He shakes his head, willing back emotions he thought he'd conquered days ago.] I lost the only thing I ever succeeded at.

[Another flare, though thankfully it's not jealousy this time. Still, Cloud has to school his expression and pray his thoughts don't decide to pop up.]

Would you stop?

[That causes him to glare sharply.]

Stop what?

Stop measuring yourself by her successes, by his. If you're going to leave her behind, do it.

I can never rid myself of either of them no matter how hard I try. I'm made from him. I am him. My head is filled with his memories, years and years worth, and no matter what I do or who I betray, nothing will change that. I'm not you. I don't have the luxury of having my own life, even now.

You're not Sephiroth. [Cloud gives him a look, then wanders a few steps away from the house. He doesn't want to be near it.] You're nothing like Sephiroth. You might have his memories in your head, but that doesn't make you him.

You don't think I don't know that? [Excuse his snappiness] I'm not Sephiroth. I'm a piece of him, though. One angry piece of the puzzle.

Not being someone doesn't make you nothing.

You broke yourself off from Jenova, didn't you? I didn't encourage you, didn't tell you so that you could be less.