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[herobydefault]

Barret. Yuffie. Vincent. Emil. Stella. Senel. Jenny. Albert. Meryl. Madame Musette. Ichigo. Sigmund.

Marlene, Simon, Denzel, Zack...Tifa. Everyone.


...I'm sorry. I remember now.

Leto...um, I don't...know how to thank you.


[Private to Kadaj//85% Unhackable]

You can stop now.



[Action]

[Since a log would be insane with the number of people there, here's Cloud in the clinic. Zack, Aerith, Denzel, Simon and Tifa should all present (I think?), and are welcome to start an action thread should they so desire. If Raine is interested, Cloud would probably also like to express his sparkly-eyed thanks; he's just wary about mentioning it over the journals.]

Comments

[Private]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I know.

...I don't think I hate you, though.

[Private]

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

You're confused, or the Spice hasn't left your system yet.

[Private]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Actually, I'm a lot less confused than I was before. Memories are all there. I'm a little tired, but I don't think that's affecting my judgement.

...Jenova spoke to me when I was in that basement. I never remembered that before.

[Private]

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

What did she say?

[Private]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

A lot of things. She promised to make me strong, and to keep me from hurting. She said she could help me show everyone exactly what I could do, to prove that I wasn't a weak little boy from the sticks.

She said she'd be my new mother, if I let her.

[Private]

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

Why didn't you listen to her?

[Private]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

I did.

But then I got Mako poisoning and fell into a coma. And then I forgot. She didn't want me after that, so she just let Sephiroth do whatever he wanted with my head. It's always about him for her, anyways; always comes back to him.

[Private]

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

Are you trying to make me feel bad for you? You were used by her, and then you were tossed. Join the club.

[Private]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Give me a little credit, Kadaj, I'm not that stupid. If I wanted to look for pity, I sure as hell wouldn't turn to you.

[Private]

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

Then what are you trying? Must I remind you that I infected your kid with the stigma, or have you forgotten so suddenly? If so, I can surely infect Denzel. I wouldn't mind going through all the trouble.

[Private]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

You asked me a question, and I answered it. That usually happens when people talk.

Of course, if you'd rather I leave you alone, I can do that. I was thinking that maybe you wanted my attention for some reason, but I guess I was wrong.

[Private] 1/2

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

Wait!

[Private]

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

What made you think I wanted your attention?

[Private]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

You already made it clear to me that you weren't infecting people for Jenova, that this was for yourself. I'd thought you were doing it just because you hated everyone, but if that was the case you could ignore all the trouble of hunting down the people close to me and just go after anyone who crosses your path.

Of course, then I'd thought the reason was because of what you'd told me, that you wanted me to suffer. That's probably a good part of it, I'll admit; why you want me to suffer, I don't know. I'm not so sure it has something to do with obeying Jenova's will anymore, though.

Then again, that brings up the issue of why you didn't bother trying to inflict me with Geostigma. I don't think you're afraid of me, or that you're afraid to fight me; you aren't afraid of much. I'd definitely had suffered if you did that. I wondered if maybe you didn't know how, but I doubt that would've stopped you for long anyways. So why leave me alone while inflicting everyone around me? I couldn't have possibly felt worse if I was healthy and they weren't, and I'd be even more helpless if I was sick myself.

And then I remembered what I would do when I was younger and I wanted attention. Being good never did the trick, so I'd do something wrong. That usually worked.

...I guess you could call it a hunch based on completely circumstantial evidence and conjecture. Can you tell I've been giving this a lot of thought?

[Private]

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

Do you expect me to tell you if you've gotten it right or not? Do you expect me to stop just because you did? Why would I want the attention of a filthy traitor like you!?

[Private]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

You tell me.

[Private]

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

I don't know.

[Private]

[herobydefault.livejournal.com]

Then we both have something to think about, don't we?

A word of advice, though...if you do want my attention -that's an if, there- then the best way to go about getting it isn't by poisoning the people I care about. That just makes me pay more attention to them.

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[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

Right.