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Dec. 29th, 2008 11:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
herobydefaultMark.
Senel.
Sora.
Misa, someone else I didn't recognize.
Duo.
A boy named Hijiri, I think his name was. Sounded like that.
...Kadaj.
Haruki.
Noishe.
Ahiru.
Kotori.
Am I missing anybody?
[[Accidental Voice]]
[There's a long pause, and then some background noises of someone moving things around.]
All in my head. MY head. She didn't deserve anything. Survival of the fittest, alien bitch. Teach you to mess with me.
Don't think about it, don't think about it, don't think about it. [Murmured.] Don't talk about it either, Cloud.
Senel.
Sora.
Misa, someone else I didn't recognize.
Duo.
A boy named Hijiri, I think his name was. Sounded like that.
...Kadaj.
Haruki.
Noishe.
Ahiru.
Kotori.
Am I missing anybody?
[[Accidental Voice]]
[There's a long pause, and then some background noises of someone moving things around.]
All in my head. MY head. She didn't deserve anything. Survival of the fittest, alien bitch. Teach you to mess with me.
Don't think about it, don't think about it, don't think about it. [Murmured.] Don't talk about it either, Cloud.
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[Action]
Date: 2008-12-31 02:41 am (UTC)For the record, I didn't expect you to do anything. Thus why I didn't go to you for help.
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Date: 2009-01-01 02:52 am (UTC)You know what, fine. I'm gonna believe in you this time, Spike - I'll trust you to ask me for help when you really need it.
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 04:29 am (UTC)He looks away.]
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 04:46 am (UTC)...Yeah?
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 05:38 am (UTC)...I don't...know what's wrong.
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 05:46 am (UTC)...Any clues?
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 06:39 am (UTC)I just...I feel like I'm- skipping. Like a bad video feed. Like my memories aren't going straight in a timeline, and...when I go to sleep, I wake up somewhere else.
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 06:57 am (UTC)... Because you got your memories back.
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Date: 2009-01-01 07:00 am (UTC)[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 07:05 am (UTC)Shit.
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Date: 2009-01-01 07:23 am (UTC)[Cloud kind of just stares off at the toe of his left boot.] Don't think about it.
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 07:27 am (UTC)[Zack's quiet for a minute, looking ahead at the wall.]
Can you even do that?
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 08:00 am (UTC)No. Weak, weakling.
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 08:42 am (UTC)You're not a weakling, Spike. If I had that much shit dumped in my head I'd have issues too. We just have to work through it somehow.
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 08:56 am (UTC)Have this shit in your head. And you're fine. Something's wrong, really wrong.
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 08:58 am (UTC)[Unable to help it, Zack reaches out and brushes his fingers through Cloud's hair. He hates to see his friend in pain like this.]
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 09:02 am (UTC)...like it's... [He struggles to put words to what exactly the problem is.] There's a...flicker at the edge of everything I think and...and I can't help but look at it, but when I do it goes away. And I think it's- I can't concentrate sometimes, have to keep myself busy. But once I don't have something to focus on, I keep seeing that flicker, and then it whispers and sometimes I agree and sometimes I don't...sometimes I just wish it would be quiet, but it's what I'm thinking. It's not good, not good.
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Date: 2009-01-01 09:08 am (UTC)[Zack swallows hard, trying so damn hard not to look spooked. He wants to help, wants to be supportive, and to do that he can't get spooked. But it's hard.]
This is going to be hard, man, but you have to keep talking about it. Don't shut it in, and screw my advice - don't stop thinking about it either. I couldn't help Seph last time because he wouldn't let me. I... I can't let that happen to you.
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Date: 2009-01-01 09:11 am (UTC)Holy, I don't want to- I read somewhere that actually crazy people don't think they're crazy, but that's what's happening to me, right? I'm getting there. I'm starting to go there, and this time I can't just go into a coma and run away and forget, not again not again never again-...
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 09:18 am (UTC)Keep talking. Come on, Cloud, keep talking. I gotta hear what you're thinking.
[He's no therapist. He has no idea how to deal with this...]
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Date: 2009-01-01 09:20 am (UTC)[It's out of his mouth before Cloud even recalls thinking it, but after the fact he realizes it's exactly what he wants to say and he just wilts.]
Promise.
[Action]
Date: 2009-01-01 09:23 am (UTC)I promise.
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Date: 2009-01-01 09:30 am (UTC)Always saving me, aren't you Zack? One of these days I'll pay you back. I'll get you home. I'll get us all home, promise. Promise.
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Date: 2009-01-01 09:35 am (UTC)[He doesn't let go of Cloud, stroking his hair a little, wanting to console him in any way he could. Cloud wasn't exactly the touchy-feely type, but sometimes a good hug did wonders.]
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Date: 2009-01-01 09:48 am (UTC)You chattered on like a five-year-old. It was funny, and sad.
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From:[Action] *hits you with ultimate sadface icon*
From:[Action] you bitch.
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